He heals the broken-hearted

Part 2...

I mentioned in my previous post that I fully had faith that God would heal me. Long story short, in 2019 the doctor's found several benign tumours aka fibroids in me. Mine had become so large that I found it difficult to breathe. Sometimes I was in a lot of pain and often judged for being pregnant. My dress size had increased from a size 8 to a size 12 and the doctor's suggested an operation to remove the tumours urgently.

At a particular time in church, after I had just finished singing, I asked 2 friends to pray for me. After prayer that night, I was able to breathe in deeply without pain. When I woke up the next morning, I had dropped back to a size 8. This was a beautiful miracle, and this made me convinced that I wouldn't need surgery. Several prophetic words also encouraged this belief.

Fast forward to 2022, it got to the point that I physically could not cope with carrying these tumours anymore, so I opted for surgery. However, I still carried faith that God could still do a miracle. To my surprise when I woke up from surgery, I was informed that the surgeon had found and removed several more tumours and that there were more complications as a result of that. 

In my recovery time, I sat and prayed fervently to God because I couldn't understand why he had allowed this. Hence why I have not posted in a very long time because I needed the time to process it. Hopefully, you would know from my previous posts I value love, authenticity, humility, and integrity highly. I know my messages are to help those who are hopeless and voiceless. So, I knew that my next post had to be genuine, telling people about my journey to provide hope.

I was watching an episode of The Chosen, and the character of Jesus was chatting to one of his disciples called little James. Little James had been unwell for a long time yet still serving and following Jesus. Little James as well as the other disciples had just been sent as an apostle to heal the sick, deliver the oppressed, and preach that the kingdom of God was at hand. Little James asked Jesus how he could heal the sick when he was sick in his own body. He also asked why Jesus hadn't healed him yet.

Little James was asking my question. The character of Jesus said something really powerful and annoying. He said ‘I love you, I trust you'. Not everyone can be trusted with believing in God for their own miracle, whilst praying for someone else to be free. God can only trust this with a few people because others would simply find it far too difficult to do. But what an incredible display of faith and trust in God for those you can.

Luke 18:8 is the parable of the persistent widow who keeps going to an unrighteous judge for Justice. The scriptures say that the judge grants her request. Jesus says but how much more our righteous God? Verse “7 And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly”. The key for me was the 2nd half of verse 8, “However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”

Having faith in God when we don't always get what we want, how we wanted it, and when we wanted it, is a far more powerful testimony. God is God, He is sovereign, and we don't get to control Him in any way.  Our responsibilities are faith, trust, love, and obedience. 

Little James did go on to heal the sick and bring deliverance to oppressed people, despite his illness. I will do the same. I will continue to pray for those who are unwell,  bringing hope to all those who need it, and being a voice to all of those who have been shut down.

I would be lying if I said I understand it all, or that I like the fact that he trusts me. Let me be clear, I am still in faith for wholeness in my body and when he returns, he will find faith in me regardless of my physical condition. Truth be told I do have a glorious testimony of how God saved me from death. ( I will share that another time.) But in that situation, God did answer quickly and urgently (Luke 18:7-8).

This mystery of defiant faith is a sign and a wonder in itself.  To be trusted with it is a difficult and a humbling privilege. Perhaps the true meaning of faith is having faith in God's character, nature and who He is, regardless of the outcome. 

God did not leave us without hope.  His promises are in the Bible to hold onto.  Our responsibility of faith is our declaration that we believe what He said in His word, and who He says He is, regardless of what our circumstances say.

The LORD will sustain him upon his sickbed; In his illness, You restore him to health. ~ Psalm 41:3

My last message is for those who like me have been suffering for a very long time.  I'm sorry it's been so hard for you. I'm so sorry that you had to endure the pain for so long. I pray for comfort and healing for your soul, as well as your body. Your testimony is beautiful.  You are an inspiration.  Thank you for not giving up and for keeping the faith.  You are strong and powerful, a light to all, and your story isn't over yet!  Whatever happens, we know that in eternity our bodies would be perfect and without pain.  Whilst we're here on the earth, our hope and faith are in God. He is with us and goes through our pain with us.  We are not alone, and we hold on to...

He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds. ~ Psalm 147:3

But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on Him, and by His wounds, we are healed. ~ Isaiah 53:5

 More from me soon.